-UnbeautifuL-

2010-04-06T18:38:00.000-07:00

was lookin through my past pics....

was like...WTF THIS IS ME o.0?
LOL

real retro STUFF HAHA

OMG SHINY HEAD =x

AMOS

AARON ROFL

wat was i doing in the 1st pic with my cousin -.-
HAHA

LOL. *cute*

2010-04-06T02:00:00.000-07:00

Retext from Cheong Yuting =D
Bold what’s you, or what you like, or what you’ve done.

My personality:

I’m loud only when I’m high.
I’m obnoxious.
I’m sarcastic.
I’m cocky.
I cry easily.
I have a bad temper.
For the most part, I don’t like ~~people~~ childish guys .
I’m easy to get along with.
I like to fight.
I have more enemies than friends.
I’ve smoked.
I’ve smoked weed.
I drink coffee.
I SELDOM clean my room ~~daily~~ .

My appearance:

I wear makeup.who doesn?
I wear a piece of jewelry at all times.
I wear contacts.
I wear glasses.
I’ve had braces.
I have braces.
I change my hair color often.
I straighten my hair often.
My ears are pierced.
I have small feet.

Relationships:

I’m in a relationship now.
I’m single.
I’m crushin’.
I’m always scared of being hurt.
An ex has physically abused me at least once.
I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
I’ve been in love more than two times.
I believe in love at first sight.
I believe lust is more important than love.

Friendships:

I have a best friend~~. - i don’t know anymore.~~
I have at least ten friends. its about quality
I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
I’ve beaten up a friend.
I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend. and im sorry.. =(
I can trust at least five people with my life.

Experiences:

I’ve been on a plane.
I’ve been on a train.
I’ve left the state/province.
Someone close to me has died.
I’ve taken a taxi.
I’ve taken a city bus.
I’ve taken a school bus.
I’ve gone bungee jumping.
I’ve made a speech.
I’ve been in some sort of club.
I’ve won an award.
I’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.
I’ve been in a physical fight.

Music:

I listen to country.
I listen to pop.
I listen to techno.
I listen to rock.
I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I hate it.
I hate the radio.
I download music.
I buy CD’s.

Television:

I spend at least six hours a day watching television.
I watch soap operas daily.
I’m in love with Days Of Our Lives.
I’ve seen and like The OC.
I’ve seen and like One Tree Hill.
I’ve seen and like America’s Next Top Model.
I’ve seen and like Popular.
I’ve seen and like House.
I’ve seen and like 24.
I’ve seen and like CSI.
I’ve seen and like Everwood.

im not a ang moh drama feller.

Family Life:

I get along with both of my parents.
My biological parents are still together.
I have at least one brother.
I have at least one sister.
I have at least one step brother/sister.
I have at least one half brother/sister.
I’ve been kicked out of the house.
I’ve ran away from my home.
I’ve sworn at my parents.
I’ve made my parents cry.
I’ve lied to my parents.
I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing.
I’ve lied to my parents so I’d be allowed out.
I’ve walked out when I’ve been grounded.

Hair:

I’ve been brown.
I’ve had streaks.
I’ve cut my hair in the past year.
I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
I’ve been blonde.
I’ve had black.
I’ve been red.
I’ve been light brown.
I’ve been medium brown.
I’ve had purple/pink.
I’ve been blue/green.
I’ve gotten my hair thinned.
I use conditioner.
I’ve used silk therapy.
I’ve used hot oil treatments.
I’ve curled my hair.
I’ve straightened my hair.
I’ve ironed my hair.
I’ve braided my hair.
I’ve had/want dreadlocks.

School:

I’ve thrown something at a teacher.
I’ve yelled at a teacher.
I’ve been suspended.
I’ve had an in-school suspension.
I’ve been sent to the principal’s office. my dad =)
I’ve walked out of class.
I’ve skipped an entire day of school.
I’ve skipped a whole month of one certain class.
I’ve failed a test.
I’ve cheated on a test.
I’ve helped someone else cheat on a test.
I’ve ~~failed~~ LOVE Art.
I’ve failed P.E. NAFA =(
I’ve failed Math.
I’ve failed another class.
A teacher has called my parents.
I’ve been caught skipping.

2010-04-04T22:41:00.001-07:00

and seriously...i felt all of those feelings at 1 shot before..
FELT.
dun remind me of those again.

soul turning to stone in progress.

randoms.

the pretty bitch.

the happy unending ocean.
if only i can just sink into the ocean like this and not come out...
without dying....
life will be awesome.

a pretty polaroid.

and my cute dp.

Ben n Jerry moments w khuz wirda n liyana

wtf who cracked it!

sis kailing kawaii lappy

sakura season under my house
its beautiful.

easter in the church...

it made me forget that i was freezin in that cold sunday morning =)
thanks god.

2010-04-03T06:29:00.000-07:00

went out w sis kailing

again =)

enjoyed being w her...
listening to her stories
try to heal her heartache

what doesn't kills you makes you stronger.

alright!
there's tons of fish in the water, so the waters I will test

mr perfect gentleman...
please be real...

come'on god
stop treating me and my sis lives as your personal joke ...
its not funny.
it is real.
pain.

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one, I still got the seed

2010-03-31T05:03:00.000-07:00

too beautiful.
too perfect.

the perfect gentleman.

*slap myself*

wake up amanda!

2010-03-28T18:15:00.000-07:00

haix....

4gt to bring ear piece~

=(( tts y im bloggin in work now =/

OMG.
im goin to draw this shirt soon!

and this!

so many things i wanna do~ ><

went swimming w yoke n lemin on sat....
whrs the sun? ><
ok lar...gt abit...
so skin colour abit darker....

haha
budden i need ps them (SRY AGAIN) go fetch my bro to swimmin

WA
swimming round 2!!! but was exhausted so didn swim much =/

but i made me fell for swimming again~

.S.W.E.E.T.

went out w kl sis =)

CUTE RIGHT HER SHOE.

was out since 9 plus all the way till 9 at night

WAS SO DAMN FUN
it was healing her bit by bit.
made me think of my bastard past.

made me think of her sweet bastard past.

just... really fun to hang out w her til night.

i was goin
" yes i like creepy things..."
"yes i like chunky but im nt goin to bring it hm... '
"yes i like scrump and lilo and stitch....the one with the funny eye and funny mouth~"

the one with the funny eye and funny mouth HAHA

my little elvis <3

HAHA
am i really tt weird?

and i met up w khuz n wirda for lunch!
and their friend liyana...

was fun hangin out tgt again. thank god they are a station away only~

is this the healing power of god?
or the healing power of crushes?

nowadays i see cute guys...*hehe*
on the mrt...
in my office...

and finally i will start missing cute guy...

like finally.

ive nv miss or think of guys ever since...
HAHA

but im still a stone.
opps =/

See this heart won't settle down
Like a child running scared from a clown
I'm terrified of what you do
My stomach screams just when I look at you

But you're so hypnotizing
You've got me laughing while I sing, you've got me smiling in my sleep
And I can see this unraveling
Your love is where I'm falling, but please don't catch me

2010-03-28T07:10:00.000-07:00

"amanda...u change liao~"
i keep getting this usual comments...

YES.
I ADMIT.
IVE CHANGED.

WHY? cannot meh
i jut dunt wan to be the same stupid dumb gullible girl that was once living in this body.

ive taught myself to be STRONG. SO STRONG... i make sure i will never fall again.
even if i fall...it will be on my knees
i will STAND up STRONG again...

i will not feel a thing.
i am a rock.
perhaps a person without a soul.

someone stole my soul away.
she will never be back again.

say good bye to the foolish amanda everyone once knew.
shes gone.

2010-03-24T20:08:00.000-07:00

Look at this photograph

Everytime I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red
And what the hell is on Joey's head

And this is where I grew up
I think the present owner fixed it up
I never knew we'd ever went without
The second floor is hard for sneaking out

And this is where I went to school
Most of the time had better things to do
Criminal record says I broke in twice
I must have done it half a dozen times

I wonder if it's too late
Should i go back and try to graduate
Life's better now than it was back then
If I was them I wouldn't let me in

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, god, I

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.

Remember the old arcade
Blew every dollar that we ever made
The cops hated us hangin' out
They say somebody went and burned it down

We used to listen to the radio
And sing along with every song we know
We said someday we'd find out how it feels
To sing to more than just the steering wheel

Kim's the first girl I kissed
I was so nervous that I nearly missed
She's had a couple of kids since then
I haven't seen her since god knows when

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, god, I

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.

I miss that town
I miss the faces
You can't erase
You can't replace it
I miss it now
I can't believe it
So hard to stay
Too hard to leave it

If I could I relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye.

Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
Everytime I do it makes me...

-Photograph by nickelback

2010-03-21T05:41:00.000-07:00

suddenly i get an on9 msg from my bro...thought wat...

in the end...

its this vid...

2010-03-19T07:26:00.000-07:00

last sat....

the start of my pretty busy wk><

OMG~!!!!!!!!!!!!

its adam!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so cute~ * BIG WIDE GRIN*

wasnt plnning to buy hes deluxe album but inthe end kena sia koed

so i end up having 2 adam lambert album...anybody wan buy?

because of you(adam) we waited in the rain...drenched.

ITS OK...its worth it....HES SUPER CUTE.
cutest ang moh ive seen live ><

sun...

random pics while waitin for the bus...

drenched again.

i ended up looking similar to my cousin..

1st wk of SAP...
pretty cool
getting used to ang moh and america accent and jap and diff accents....
its like many different scott jons talking with different pitch different tones different voices...
but the accent is OMG the same-.-

<3 the vending machine tt is free though=)
really appreciate it=)
\
FREE DRINKS=D

planning wat to buy in china already ><
this is on the top of my list...

bagpack for skates<3333

2010-03-12T00:02:00.000-08:00

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i cant b on wheelchair...

really...

i cnt suffer those kind of stares.
they kill me.

i cant sit there the wholeday infront of my desk,
relyin on people for everythin...
even the simplest thing-- to have my food on my table; you just have to rely on others.

that embarassment and endless sorries to trouble the person is just too much...

The leader of the band is tired
And his eyes are growing old
But his blood runs through My instrument
And his song is in my soul

My life has been a poor attempt
To imitate the man
I’m just a living legacy
To the leader of the band.

I thank you for the music
And your stories of the road
I thank you for the freedom
When it came my time to go

I thank you for the kindness
And the times when you got tough
And, pap, I don’t think i
Said ’i love you’ near enough..

2010-03-08T04:37:00.000-08:00

ok...

this is not recent.

just busy lately to blog..

or rather...

LAZY.

the bastard thing tt tripped me

my lovely cut.

on my chin....again.

a cute veg name i saw in sheng shiong...

1 of the nicest fish soup i ever tasted!!

bo liao times in jurong library...(the marking on my hand prob show u the amt of strength i use to study >< )

just <3

<3 this too...... bought=)

today in SAP is a waiting day
waited for 2 hours
stared at the ceiling
stared at the wall
stared at the glass panel( which is me in the reflection)
looked at ang mohs old and young
listen to mp3
listen to high heels cloaking away
listen to accents and guessing where they are from (mostly america...no britain at all)
stared at my hp
smsed ppl
drained my psp batt...

and this is my workin day.
it lasted for bout... 2hours than i got sent back

long story.
shant elaborate much =/

gotta go to sch tmr for fypj =(
at least its flex.
startin to fall for it.

please give me an A.

2010-02-28T01:15:00.000-08:00

tired...
so tired...

I NEED A BREAK!!!!!!!!
ENDLESS BREAKS!!!!!!!!!
haix...
study study study
felt like a nerd -0-0- remind me of my sec 2 times ><

went to the hospital cos my dad went to fix hes tendon(same case as my mum -.-)

saw sara n syl
so envy

they already finish exam...*ENVY*

EXAMS PLEASE END FAST!!!!!

thank god i have westlife and hayley william voices sings into my ears

MARK !!!!!!!!AGAIN~
beautiful blue eyes...
heartfelt lyrics...
spine chilling voice...
blue eyes...*hehe*
CHARMING SMILE X)

i found myself falling for these blue eyes again >
wait...hes gay =(((
if only hes just an ordinary guy whose life crosses my path... =)
if only..

and hayley's voice =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

and now t-ara too=DDDD

*the rapper girl~*

LILO AND STITCH!!!!!!!!!!!

my fav salad w nuts XD

the mountain of food in my kitchen
how can i resist it ><

sunset from the view of my dad's car

pretty pics:

SPIDER MONKEY!!!!

<333333333

recently pretty addicted to friendship bands ><

2010-02-16T04:34:00.000-08:00

last few days in sch b4 presentation ><

guess whos this!!!!!!!!!! HAHA so cute ><

my eco-friendly pencil case <3

my worn out skates ><

cute baby in mag

<3 this ad in the mag =D *skates*

people threw cigar butts down >< FYA

saw these cute stuff in robinson KITCHEN section (omfg i actually liked tt place)
POPCORN MAKERS

HOTDOG BUN MAKERS

CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!!!

my favouritest chi desert!!!!!!!!! or ni~

the beautiful sun set on the way to my 2nd reunion dinner consecutively.. *so full that night that i felt like a sumo><*

SPENT THE WHOLE NIGHT mahjongin~
i finally learn how to play it =/
SO FUN ><

kimchi steamboat (with barbeque scallop *hehe*)

damn nice agar agar

and a DARN NICE hamper=D

guess ill b eatin oranges for the rest of the week =X

Source

Jogger slashed on tuesday, were they attacked by same man?
Sun, Feb 07, 2010, The New Paper

The jogger who was slashed in Yishun on Tuesday isn't the first victim.

Shin Min Daily News reported that another woman was attacked and stabbed on 29 Jan at 11pm in the same area.

On Tuesday, a man brutally slashed a health-care worker, 23, who was out on a jog at about 11am.

In the earlier incident, a woman was stabbed repeatedly about 1.5km from the latest incident. A police spokesman confirmed the 29 Jan attack. No arrests have been made so far.

The police spokesman said that investigations are ongoing.

Ms Jo Tan, 26, a freelance tutor who lives at Block 172, Yishun Avenue 7 where the 29 Jan incident happened, saw the victim after the attack.

She told The New Paper: "I saw someone lying on the floor and I thought it may have been a heart attack. I was on the way to a friend's home when I saw her.

"I didn't hear her scream at all. I often stay out late but I'm scared now because I live with my sister and my wheelchair-bound father."

While it's unclear if it was the same attacker, the details are similar.

Both victims were observed for about 15 minutes each before they were attacked.

In both instances, the attacker of slim build was seen clad in long pants and T-shirts. The attacker also slashed the victims on their hands, back and neck.

The victim in the 29 Jan attack, who gave her name only as Madam Huang, spoke to Shin Min Daily News after a concerned resident alerted the newspaper.

The resident had learnt about Madam Huang's attack from Madam Huang's landlady, Madam Ling, who rents out a room to her.

Madam Huang, 31, a sales assistant, told Shin Min that she was at the void deck of Block 172 Yishun Avenue 7 when she noticed a young Chinese man loitering around the area.

Black T-shirt

She said the slender man looked to be in his 20s, was about 1.63m and dressed in a black T-shirt and long pants. He was carrying a black backpack.

Madam Huang, a Malaysian, said: "He looked like he was waiting for friends, so I didn't pay too much attention to him."

About 15 minutes later, she walked towards the lift. While waiting for the lift, she felt someone push her from the back.

When she turned around, she saw the same man she had earlier spotted at the void deck.

To her horror, he was holding a 6cm-long knife. He then attacked her, repeatedly stabbing her for about five minutes.

Madam Huang recalled: "Everything happened so quickly, I didn't even notice at first that he had slashed my waist twice. Before I knew it, he was slashing the right side of my neck."

With all her might, Madam Huang pushed her attacker away. Overcome with fear, she said she could not scream.

Instead, she used her hands to shield herself from his attacks. But her attacker was relentless and her hands were slashed.

She said: "He was mindlessly slashing me. It was only when I screamed for help that he stopped and ran off. It was really frightening."

Bleeding and in pain, she said she walked for about 50m before bumping into a passer-by who helped her call for an ambulance.

She was taken to the Tan Tock Seng Hospital where she was warded for four days.

The attack left her with "at least eight stab wounds" on her back, chest and left arm. She is now recuperating in her friend's house.

She said: "It's a bad memory, I wouldn't dare to live there again. I was fortunate enough not to be killed. My left hand now has a scar over 10 cm long."

Worried

Madam Ling, 38, said Madam Huang had moved in just a month before the attack.

The worried woman said: "As long as the attacker is not yet captured, he may strike again.

"Now I don't dare to go out alone at night. That's the same advice I will give to other female residents in the area."

On Tuesday, policemen in red berets and vests were seen searching the area, while red armoured vans with the words Special Operations Command emblazoned on them were parked along the roads.

Policemen with dogs could also be seen in the forested area behind the dorm.

Residents have been sharing details of the attacks.

Madam Kam Lai Fong, a 33-year-old housewife, said: "When we saw the blood we wondered whether it was a lovers' tiff or drunkards. There was a lot of blood.

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its so near sembawang ><

my god ><

cant go ulu place to jog liao ><

maybe i should learn muay thai boxing or some martial arts to defend myself =/

2010-02-12T23:26:00.000-08:00

sia la...

so nice ><

got pink and enrique iglesias(cute guy hehe)

nt bad for a remix =D

finally i get to relax and breathe~

2010-02-11T04:11:00.000-08:00

thank you projects and late nights in school

you just given my a HUGE RED PIMPLE ON MY NOSE FOR CNY>< well done.

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thank you YSS STUPID

i think my temperature boils when i hear your name.
stay away from me.
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thank you mr ho n cher

lucky gt u 2 if nt my update cfm cnt work =(
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thank you yewli, my leader for 4 sems

for nagging and nagging at me =(
and also give up yr chance for dist ><
sry bout it =(
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thank you yoke and lemin

for slacking with me at times and ignoring naggy ~~old~~ man w me
and help me deal w YSS cos i gt so PISSSSSSSSSed off
and deal with my pissed off face as well when i gt pissed =)

now its ~~just~~ studyin for ABAP and report before CNY...

HAIX
with my red nose
i feel so miserable when i look into the mirror =(
this is how my CNY starts

HAIX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-01-30T07:39:00.001-08:00

fact. the are more les relationships.

you know why....

COS GUYS SUX BIG TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thanks kailing sis for reminding me =)

lie.
lie.
lie.
gone. *thats when he vanise*

2010-01-29T06:42:00.000-08:00

1st and foremost....

HAPPY (20th) BDAY YOKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha
celebrated her bday in sch just now and bought her "strawberry cheese cake"
nt bad =D for a light cheese cake =)

and some other stuff too.. =)

after tt went off to skate at jelutung or smt..
damn hell fun =D
made new friends with some ppl who teach there... *crazy*
made some new friends w some cute kiddy beginners=)
haha
made friends w some cute angmoh also *hehe* but 10 yrs and 13 yrs old =(
but they lead a really cool life...SPORTS influenced, some different ang mohs they are...AND THEY THINK IM YOUNGER THAN AMOS (as usual =p) HAHA thought i was 15
didn even believe i was 19
guess i still gt a childish way of speakin ><

its my love now...OMG ><

if only i know how to spin >< DO THEY HAVE A GREEN FOR THIS ><

this wk...

my RIOT! shirt =D

the HUGE spide web in the girls toilet ><

and my previous week...

bette midler!!! me dad retro cd

do you see amos inside haha

me in my new hair cut
>< opps

worn out on 1 half ><

bent usb frm ...><

ps.I.REALLY.REALLY.REALLY.REALLY.HATE.GOSSIP.GUYS.GIRLS.
SHUT YOUR MOUTH OR ILL JUST SMASH YOUR TEETHS AND RIP YR TONGUE OUT.

2010-01-27T06:15:00.000-08:00

just stay numb.

a note to me...

just stay...

2010-01-23T05:34:00.000-08:00

------what do you think?-----
X|

cut my hair today again

like it or hate it...

I DONT CARE. FUCK.

its my life. so GET LOST.

test on monday.
test on tues.

what am i doing right now...
no mood to study again.

listenin to outsider((신옥철) ...

<3 his rap at 17 syllables per second

even though he doesn look as shuai...who cares...
he rap well
=D

2010-01-21T18:27:00.001-08:00

SAP SUCKS!!!!!!!!

cant believe im stuck w it even in yr 3......

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I MIGHT EVEN GET PISSED TO DEATHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

FML.

todays is gloomy friday...
raining..
raining..
raining..
raining..
raining..
raining..

-.- when i gt the time to FINALLY skate.

FML

next monday n tues = test
next monday = proj walk through...

goodbye my love~

no time to skate alr ><

FUCKING HAV TO SPEND SO MUCH TIME IN SCHOOL
-REDOING VC
-deploying the VC
-DELETING the Action
-adding action
-adding callable object
-group attributes
-renaming roles
- unchecking the

exposed in

parameter
- changing the roles in PROCESS to initiator
-and again...ACTIVATE and test.

F THIS SHIT.
THE STEPS ARE EMBEDDED IN ME ALR.
OMG.

well....at least its after the VC..-.-

my new idol!!!!! =DDD

DESTRESSES.ME.

2010-01-18T05:37:00.001-08:00

was soooooo DAMN BLOODY PISSED

stupid farkin school....

cant you just split the exams.....AND NOT HUP TGT AND KILL US...

I ALMOST BLEW UP FEELING SO !@#$%^&*$#@! FUCKED UP

><

opps

losing patience again ><

amos n i
=)

never thought going around cones can be so exciting ><

haix...

test tmr
test on thur
test on next monday
test on tues

.HAIX.HAIX.HAIX.HAIX.HAIX.HAIX.HAIX.HAIX.HAIX.HAIX.HAIX.HAIX.HAIX.HAIX.HAIX.HAIX.HAIX.

2010-01-16T17:11:00.000-08:00

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!

gt my new hp.... so i can.stop.typing.in.this.manner

=DDDDDDD

got my flash theme too=)
#@@#$%^& took me so long to find the version compatible to my handphone -.- )(*&^%$#

from this.. http://www.zedge.net/

yoke was so fascinated w the barbie spoon that i hav... HAHA

i used to by a young girl ok...well...er... *tom* girl?

friday went to skate in sembawang mega court with extremely pro ppl ><
felt so noob ><
but at the same time...
AWESOME =D

learnt some new tricks from terence...

the one in red...i think ><

he taught us...

mabrouk

nelson

=D

looked so nice =)))))))))))))

saw another landrover!!!!!!

and i was going through the haystack in my room and i found this...

ME!! as a little kid ><

2010-01-12T04:31:00.001-08:00

i dreamt of having a pug ytd...

arent they cute ><

and i will name mine elvis =)

ELVIS THE PUG~ *wait...im dreamin...pugs are expensive...*

haix...come back to reality...

nowadays i keep seeing land rover and jeep cars in sg...

SO BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!

but...lazy to get drivin license eh~ ><
=(

went to ECP again...

and got myself new cones =) it costs 1.50 EACH!!!!!!! ><
so ex...

but beautiful ><

finally...a non-rainy day~

im just...so glad to b able to go overseas fypj w yoke, lemin, joanna n vivian =DDDD

something to look forward to... =)

thinking of bringin my love along ><

~*cant breathe without you~*

~

but meanwhile...IM STILL STUCK W SAP!!!!!!! fml now.

2010-01-06T04:23:00.000-08:00

wtf.

seriously wtf lor...

my dad dun let me go watch cos its too ex!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its 108 only leh...

and my dad still threaten to cut my daily allowance..... WTF i only get $6 a day...

FML. if my daily allowance gets lesser....i might as well quit school and work.

anyway paramore tix are all sold out...

FML

there goes hayley william =(((

FML.

2day...went w yoke to popeyes...
nt tt bad... but nt as gd as i expected for the burger...
but the mashed potatoes were...=)
*brilliant*
long time since i last ate gd mashed potato...
but of cos...the best ones are still in in kenny rogers... =) =)

today till sat...open hse...
*nothing interestin*
just love the holidays ><<

2010-01-05T03:38:00.000-08:00

here i am blogging...

because of...THE RAIN!!!

DAMN!!!

wet the floor!!!!!!!~

idiot.

anyway...i have to blog anyway....to thank my darling banana family for the gathering tgt... didnt see you guys for sooooooooooo long ><

and thanks to wirda n khuz for the gifts belated too =)

and...the past few weeks in pics

P.S trying out the editin of pics of photobucket =)

HOW CAN I NOT HATE SAP ><

FARKING PROBLEMATIC SOFTWARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i cant deny my hatred for it.......ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

spending more than half my holidays with her =)
skating~ as usual.
sleeping later too >< (thanks for the small eyes i had...reminds me of someone~ ><)

happy bday AHYI!!!!!!!!!!!
so xingfu to hav 2 cakes on yr bday~

than next day...

school just reopened.... HAIX....

it doesnt even feel like a new year...

i just feels like...the start of a school term..

with projects bombarding in... wasting my time to complete...useless stuff.

happily watching movies in class too =)
like..

and on and on and on... =)

amos in boarding now...

no...wait

more like hotel....

FREAKING GOT ROOM SERVICE, LAUNDRY SERVICE, even ironing service !!!!!!!!!!!!

got pool table, got TV, got gym, got swimming pool!!!!!!

WA LAU EH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! too bad he cant skate...=p

be gone for 3 months~

another ris low 0.0

2009-12-26T21:17:00.000-08:00

busy watchin movies this 2 wks... =D and of cos...skating and celebratin christmas... holiday in pics... -------------------------<3

2009-12-21T04:23:00.000-08:00

i don't know...

2009-12-20T05:40:00.000-08:00

watched princess n the frog in msia....

YOU ARE RIGHT YOKE!!!

its very disney~ =)

~*my evangeline*~

The Princess and the Frog - 12 by *davidkawena on deviant ART

haha

nice movie...

just came back...
didnt walk much...dad n mum both achilles tendon broke><
just ...eat.sit...
lots of sales goin on also... nt bad ...
except the 2h traffic jam on saturday at the causeway><

*haix*

let me think how many ppl i spread the flu virus to...

7 i think... ><

and it ALL come with a full package ><

FLU.FEVER.SORETHROAT.

wat a nice way to start the holidays.... -.-

2009-12-17T06:38:00.000-08:00

1st half of december in pictures..

in sembawang...ALL THE FLATS HAVE THIS LO WTF

but in pasir ris...

SO UNFAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ><

2009-12-16T01:29:00.000-08:00

F.M.L!!!!!!!

FML man....

everything goes wrong for me....

EVERYTHING!

even in games....im so damn )(*&^%$# SUAY!!@#$%^&*()

so unlucky...i really stand a chance to get knocked down by a tree..

my project.....EVERYTHIN GOES DOWN THE DRAIN LIKE.

do so much alr than in the end...

FML

im freakin stuck with nothing. *haix*

FML

i need a break.
i need to skate.

btw its true that i blog when im pissed and hopeless..

2009-12-08T21:32:00.000-08:00

after a long break...

ive decided to post something...

WHY IN THE WORLD DO WE HAVE TO LEARN THINGS THAT PISSES US OFF SO MUCH...

stupid modules that we to take

!@$%^&*(
)(*&^%$#

retards...

ERROR ALL THE F TIME -.-

anyway...

the reason why im del my blog previously is....laziness ><

but now im back=)

MY SKATES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3

(P.s: EDWARD LET ME INO YR BLOG LEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

btw ppl send me yr links if you guys relinked it...

thanks

2009-07-06T06:02:00.000-07:00

my mum scared the hell out of us just now...........

there was a lump in her X ray report.....

but most likely...accordin to the doc...its nt cancerous........

WHEW ><

it scared the hell out of me..........

i hate it when someone i love is gone.......

i know that...eventually....death will do us apart...........

but........

NOT SOOOOOOOOOOOO SOON MA.................. ><

what can i do?
i cant express myself well...
i cant even show my concern to her..........

im such a failure.............
perhaps....

my heart is immuned to feelings already........

perhaps.

2009-06-27T08:50:00.000-07:00

its back again........

its haunting me again.......

shit.

i wish i can just sleep forever in that dream...

like a fairytale...

and save me from this world...

but just like MJ...

it created an impact to my life.

like a new chapter in my life...

even if your gone....you live in me forever...

2009-06-19T09:45:00.000-07:00

the father=child bond is so strong in animals...

how come its nt always thesame in humans?

Male marmosets in South America not only carry, feed, and groom their twin babies (pictured, a baby black-tailed marmoset with its mother in a Tokyo zoo), they may even act as "midwives" during birth, grooming and licking the newborns.

Marmoset dads may be so involved because of the high cost of birth for the mother, whose unborn babies eventually make up 25 percent of her body weight—equal to a 120-pound (55-kilogram) woman giving birth to a 30-pound (14-kilogram) infant.

any happy early father's day=D

we ate buffet[ohmigod-FAT]to celebrate- my dad's ideal meal

but we enjoyed ourselves...

2009-06-19T04:56:00.001-07:00

my escape from reality...

i spent mornings and evenings in such a remote place.
surprising...
i didnt get bored of it...

i saw insects
i saw bees
i saw golden retrievers
and i even saw White Breasted Kingfisher>< ( Halcyon Smyrnensis)

they are such fascinating,pretty creatures...
their colour is enough to awe me...
plus...their gracefulness when they glide~ *0.0*

there goes 1 week of my holiday~

photoshop pros...

2009-06-16T08:16:00.000-07:00

sometimes......

im just finding a reason why im still here.

standing.

breathing.

whatever i do...it wasnt good enough for you...
you keep eating away my pride...
you keep eating away my self esteem...
whats left of me?

my looks...
my grades...
my everything....wasnt good enough

i tried to starved myself for you...
fat fat fat...you always call me that
i hate that word... i hate the fact that it existed

but no matter how much i tried to starved myself b4...
it just doesnt turn out the same...
i can NEVER b anoxeric... even though i want to...
im so sorry im ugly...
i cant help it...
i dun want to be like this...
i really never wanted to be ugly...

im so f ckng pissed off when i hear that....
on top of that...
i can hear something inside of me come crashing down on me...like waves...
i feel like dying.
just ending it.
right now.
in front of your eyes.
like a worthlss piece of shit...
fading away.
perhaps your lovely amos can be a good replacement of me...
save the money that you actually intended to spend for the rest of my life...
and spend it on hes life...
he's life is worth that cash....not mine

2ndly
i studied so that im not so far behind my oh-so-smart-brain brother...
thats how my grades improved suddenly in secondary school...
i have to study...
i have to actually do something i hate...
just so that u have the face to compare my grades w my cousin's...

in the end........
wats the worth...

you always say that hes from what sch...and...
what school am i from?

come on...

i know... even i myself...cant lie to myself...
you never appreciated my grades..
you never took time to understand me...
therefore...you never will
commuinication breakdown...
i so fed up of hearing your shrieks

FINE

IM BORN STUPID....what can i do...

i tried...i really tried...

im tired of trying....
i hate it
i hate being compared...
i hate my brother for being so perfect...
yea...
hes tall...
im fuckingshort.....like some weird short duckling quacking away...
hes smart...
im dumb...
hes perfect...
what am i?
who am i?
what am talented at?-nothing.
you're right...nothing.....

then in the 1st place...
WHY WAS I BORN?
i shouldnt be born...
you should have just suffocated me when i was just the size of a loaf of bread...

than...
i wouldn have to go through all this...

shut up.......

i hate to hate to be home.

i hate to fake the smile

i hate to talk so that i seemed normal

i hate thinking about these unhappy things

i hate to look at myself in the mirror

i hate to look at my brother without looking at hes perfections

i hate to be concealed.

this is the only way i show myself.

2009-06-15T18:25:00.000-07:00

holiday and past few weeks in pictures...

our drawings on a borin java lecture^^

a lovebite from a mosquito that woke me 1 morning-.-

the another trip to msia...

SPAM SECRET RECIEPE CHEESECAKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the carls junior burger as compared to my bro's face...

dear god...
its me again...

save me from me.

the sea that holds memories...

2009-06-06T08:34:00.000-07:00

went to watch hannah montana w yokleng lemin joanna vivian edward wenkai daryl...

i freakin like hoedown throwdown=DDDDDDD

its freakin nice........

thx for guys for acc me to watch this
appreciated it soooooooooo much
^^

sometimes life is so like shit.

feel so small
so depressed...

assignments and tests...

its drowning my life...
its killing the sunshine...

just the cold rainy day left...

2009-05-23T19:19:00.000-07:00

friday.......went to delifrance to eat...........

chessy whatever....SO FREAKIN NICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pieces of mushrooms drowned in a pool of melted cheese~

than after tt....

i saw this when i was fetchin my bro.....

its a HUGE ENORMOUS GIGANTIC poster right smack in front of my pri sch gate><

wtf...

i see

my pri sch friend rachel...and my another pri sch friend artica or something...

than the white girl...freakin familar...

than i took a close look.....

WTF

its me -.-

sooooooooooooo freakin NERD-.-

yesterday...
went to my bro sch for open house and to psycho aaron to b more hardworking to enter amos's sch..

and got a free frisbee =DDD

in the evenin when we went tomy grandma place...they digged out some pics of my bro and i when we were young....

we were so WHITE-.- and fat
so bai bai pang pang-.-

btw............when i was playing tracks of m tears................

MY MUM SAY ADAM LAMBERT V HANDSOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

duh......he is a handsome gay...

my mum was devasted when i told him hes gay-.-

lol...i was devasted myself when i found out hes gay too
><

are all the gays really so good looking?
or are they good looking because they are gay?

2009-05-19T05:27:00.000-07:00

to recap.......

10 may went to cousin house to celebrate amos bday w them..

and the many many times we ate subway........bcos of the 5.90 discount=DDD
ate it almost every weekend ><

typical singaporeans~

notice tt the end of the straw is sealed>< freakin cute lol

today evening
took a break from my extremely hectic schedule and went for a ride to sembawang park...

my beautiful bike=D

seriously....you can see msia from here man...no wonder its only 1.5 km away~

GOT MONKEY LEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! on the tree...but an aggresive one...
*scared*

my secret spot to enjoy the view... the pretty nature...
forever young
forever beautiful
forever smelling fresh
the minty cool air that rushes to yr cheeks, melting the sweat trickling the yr face~
love tt feeling man!!!

and its this creature tt i have to stop my bike for...freakin alot la><

whoever told you singapore waters are dirty...

well

i guess they nv seen the other side of nature yet...
the waters are so clear and blue...you can even see the rocks >< !!!

2009-05-17T02:24:00.000-07:00

am i v unlikeable?

sry la

i have a low EQ

to me...

some things are better left unsaid...
most things... in fact
people wont get to feel the way i feel
they are so perfect all the time...
wat do they know?
do they ever feel that same way i feel?
i doubt so

they never felt it that way...
and they never will...

how can life be so cruel....
yet sweet at the same time?

i know im blessed w a complete sweet small better than average family...
i really appreciate it...
my family...
always there for me...
even when i was a jerk
even when i talked back and argue to them
even when i vent out my anger on them
even when i destroyed their stuff
even when i never returned their stuff
even when i ate up all their cookies
even when i gobbled all their dumplings...and they were left with fishballs...
even when i refused to speak to them
even when i drowned myself into my music and ignored their advices...'

they never left me...

how can love be so strong?
wasnt it fragile?
wasnt it as thin as a piece of tissue?

how can life feel so confusing?

2009-05-14T08:30:00.000-07:00

a year.

2009-05-11T05:57:00.000-07:00

ARGHHHHHHHHHH

shitz

im so not in a good mood man....

my audio in my com is nt working

the UAA n the audio bus><

i cnt listen to music!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what is life without music?

yesterday...went to watch star trek w my dad in downtown east.....
not tt bad as i thought...^^

my guess is...this is probably the last few chances that i get to watch movies with my dad...

judging on my school projects and stuffs....

i hate the fact that a actually spend more time in school than at home... i fucking hate it...

i hate it when i see other families falling apart because of money,
i hate it when families fall apart because of pride,
i hate it when families fall apart because of popularity,
i hate it when families fall apart because of one person.

i dun want my family to fall apart...
afraid...that everyone in the family goes seperate ways...
i am...

2009-05-09T19:12:00.000-07:00

scrap book for mother's day =DDD

also my bro's bday...........

my dad bougth him a nike b ball.............SO EX man-.-

2009-05-07T06:13:00.000-07:00

just now...........

school ended at 2pm...

finally...

a early day to end school^^

went to play pool w some of the class guys and yokeleng....

1st time playin ><

my fingers...are really short...

my legs...are really really short.....

SAD THANG....

play chinese songs somemore...even worst............

my hatred for chinese songs are...

unestimatable...indescribeable..... and to the extreme end of hate.

haix......

at least pool...quite ok lor...

but i will nv gt addicted to it...

2009-05-02T06:51:00.000-07:00

may day absolutely rocks hell out of my shit man!
even though the traffic was so heavy in msia....(it jammed all the way to sg-.-)
it was quite a nice day...=D

moi parents

et moi
in british india's changin room...

my starchy kenny roger lunch^^

mum's lunch

aaron's lunch

our london fish dinner><

half eaten><

today went for early mother's day buffet w my grandma.....
didn took much pics of the food...
i was

busy STARVING myself w all the dim sum tts on the table~

my SUPER HIGH ice cream....
the whole middle layer
is
PEPPERMINt><
im absolutely drowning myself in a galaxy of food><

its a buffet...need a say more?

I FINALLY GOT A BIKE~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was head over heels...knocked out><
my cousin sean's leg was getting too long for the bike....
guess
MY SHORT LEGS FINALLY PUTS ITSEF TO GOOD USE=D

but i promised my dad...i wont ride it on the roads...in the morning....
so i guess...it aint the way i expected it to be...haix*

2009-04-25T19:56:00.001-07:00

Your beauty is beyond compare
With flaming locks of auburn hair
With ivory skin and eyes of emerald green
Your smile is like a breath of spring
Your voice is soft like summer rain
And I cannot compete with you, jolene

if jolene ever existed in my life...

i would wither away like a fallen rose...\

yesterday watched okto saturday night

french movie man!!!!!!!!1111

the angel face boy sing like angel man >><<

hope his voice still damn nice after voice break><

my holiday in pictures

2009-04-22T03:57:00.000-07:00

my unsweetened green bean soup........
1st try...
=D
not bad...
ITS EDIBLE!!!!!!!!
at least i can survive on green bean soup if im dumped at home alone =D
but...its seriously damn unsweet...even though i put 9 rocks of brown sugar -.-

my cousin house view...

see the inconsiderate PPL WHO JUST throw their trolley into the river......
FUCK SHIT the ppl><
INCONSIDERATE PEOPLE...
inconsiderate....

the pasir ris mangrove...

my 1st campbell soup=D
and my 1st EXTREMELY CHAODA EGG(the black 1 i make 1)
ITS SO SHIT tt its inedible-.-

and my collection of chicken soup =D

a black rose in my grandma house.......

how pretty and sweet black is...

met up w syl on 9 april....EXACTLY ON HER BDAY =D

a happy occasion...

been so long since we met....2 of us...
just...us...

and i passed her the homer simpson i crocheted for sara bday......

BOTH OF THEM ARE 18 NOW.......

-.-

so good~

amos posing w the simpson...

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!

--------------------------------------------------------------------------
i hate school

i officially declare...

I HATE SCHOOL

I HATE THE EARLY MORNING

I HATE THAT FIXED TIMING

I HATE IT MAN.......

but......at least the timetable this term is better....so....=X

2009-04-14T20:20:00.001-07:00

my cousin send me this vid

this guy damn damn cool

2009-04-08T19:40:00.000-07:00

my dad sent me this email

I just received this message from a colleague. I don’t know the source of the message; I also don’t know the credibility of the content, but just beware.

Below is the content on the message:

“Hello there. I just wanted 2 let you know that please stay away from the beaches all around in the month of July. There is a prediction that there will be another tsunami hitting on July 22nd. It is also when there will be sun eclipse. Predicted that it is going 2 be really bad and countries like Malaysia (Sabah & Sarawak), Singapore, Maldives, Australia, Mauritius, Si Lanka, India, Indonesia, Philippines are going 2 be badly hit. Please try and stay away from the beaches in July. Better 2 be safe than sorry. Please pass the word around. Please also pray for all beings.”

i swear.... recently...i think 3 weeks back...
i had a dream where singapore got tsunami...
and than this email....><

2009-04-05T03:05:00.000-07:00

who would hav thought...

this beautiful scenary...

can be such a disgustin sight of pollutants and SHIT

stop polluting the environment!!!!!!!!!
isnt the environment POLLUTED ENOUGH FOR you...
look at the stupid weather...
you dun even know its goin to rain anot...

SOME SHIT THING><

on sunday...after church...

i actually ate 2 pieces of HUGE GIGANTIC pieces of chicken in BBQ CHICKEN...
i hate to say but...i really like the crisp......
its so.... like cookie...fried cookie><

but the chicken is SO HUGEEEEEEEEEE like... bigger than the size of my clutched fist><

yesterday yesterday... went to see david Archuleta w lemin =D
HESSSSSSS SOOOOOOOOOO CUTE!!!!!!!

if only there are more of this type of guys........caring...thoughtful...sweet...not pervertic...educated...talented... the world will be a much better place....

but who cares now... im not done breathing this air of freedom=D

2009-03-31T07:57:00.000-07:00

amanda mah..........

you are SO going to get in shape......

swimming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

evening walks!!!!!!!
the breeze of the natural wind is absent but...at least the colours are present=D

but my skin just couldn't stop peeling......

and i couldn't stop resisting temptations from the chocolates in the fridge~
and the muffins in the cake shop~
and the chocolate walnut butter cake my dad bought which is so god damn heavenly~
and the carls junior that my bro and i walk past by (AND I STILL GO LARGE WTF)
and the peanut butter wafer scent when i walked past prima deli
and the kueh my ahyi bought
and the nonya kueh and the curry in my dad's collegue's wedding buffet(BUFFET SOMEMORE)
and the 3kg tub of honey from australia
and the daily dosage of chocolate marshmellow cake every morning
and the cheesy pizza from pizza hut...the smell...
and the minty ice scream in wafer everytime the ice cream man's bell rings
and the taste of nutella~
and the subway cookies that cost only 2.90 for 3.....double choco....white chip macademia~

OMG...

damn long list...

im so guilty for this... im fat enough already!!!!!

AHHHHHH~ how i wish my metabolism is like my mum...
or im just a tinie winnie little bit taller than i am now...

than i wouldn b so _ _ _.
the 3 letter word that girls fear most and guys hate most.

this holiday i haven been exercisin much...........
evening walks down the blocks...
swimmin once a wk...mayb twice...mayb none...

just...plainly enjoyin mayself in the admist of yarns and food...and books...and evening walks to think about my life,the peace of music and lyrics...and watching tons of movies......and spending money......

made this....some are gifts...some are just tryouts...

wrote this on my bro's shirt too ;p

eventually..it became mine =D

2009-03-31T02:28:00.000-07:00

its been a while since we last saw each other........

i swear to god i LOVE the banana family TO THE CORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

really nice hangin out w you guys........

just being crazy n wild.............

just being ourselves and having fun...

just like before...

missed those sec sch life...

if only we can go back in time...

but

life goes on...
today's a gift
tomorrow's a mystery.

this is the song written by the hands of god...and i really thank god for them =D

hope to hang out w banana family again =D

2009-03-23T08:02:00.000-07:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh

my favourite song when i was in pri schooll............

I RUSH HOME JUST TO LISTEN TO THIS SONG EVERYDAY.......
only this song for 1 period of time..........

those sweet memories~aww><

dad just got out of radin mas pri.......goin to study at NTU........
ITS BEEN A WHILE SINCE MY DAD REACHED HOME so early TO EAT DINNER w us =D
its like...
these old familar feelings and memories.....
just came back...

if only...i can go back in time...

if only...time could just stop for us to cherish those precious moments...

if..

to remember me.

2009-03-15T08:54:00.000-07:00

to remember me.

give my sight to the man who has never seen a sunrise, a baby's face or love in the eyes of a woman.

give my heart to a person whose own heart has caused nothing but endless days of pain.

give my blood to the teenager who was pulled from the wreckage of his car, so that he might live to see his grandchildren play.

give my kidneys to one who depends on a machine to exist from week to week.

take my bones, every muscle, every fiber and nerve in my body and find a way to make a crippled child walk.

explore every corner of my brain-take my cells and let them grow so that someday a speechless boy will shout at the top of his lungs and a deaf girl will hear the sound of rain against her window.

burn what is left of me and scatter the ashes to the ocean so that the memories of me will be as endless as the sea.

if you must bury something, let it be my faults, my weakness.

give my sins to the devil.give my soul to god.

lol......i adapted this idea from chicken soup.....

its better to be prepared.

im not saying this cause i am dying or wat....=XTOUCH WOOD!!
i wouldn want to hurt my parents...i need to repay them in this life.

its just part of nature...
and part of nature to feel sad for ones lost...
but they wouldnt feel a pain at all once they are gone...so whats the point of shedding tears...

be glad they existed in our lives and will always be alive-in our memories forever...

2009-03-12T23:41:00.000-07:00

if i had a hammer... i will hammer this thick coat of pain away.

the memory will just crept into yr mind.
something warm will hug you from beneath...
and
there is a need...just to curl up alittle.

my 1st not so emo work=D
im awake now.
=D

2009-03-11T04:51:00.000-07:00

why are you in singapore?
why did you caught my eye-fuck it.
why did i ran away from you-fuck fuck fuck it.

its about a year ago since you let go of it.
on yr journey back to where you belong...you told me a lie
used it as an aid to heal my heart.
im sorry it doesnt help.

now...
you gave me a new light.
you made me realise that you can live...without me-thanks
and you made me realise that i can live...without you.
you also made me realise how much i should hold on to life....for a chance like just now...to be able to see you again...
you were wearing your school jersey...how much you reminded me that from the day you went away...people from yr school are jerks...gays...pussies...just like you.

now you left me so confused again... guess i should hold on........><

but

i also hate you...so...go back to your wherever you are from.......
it is where you belong...not here...not in singapore.
i guess i shouldn have seen you...
now that the same ache is back.

you made it hard to forget you...
and this is confusing me...

i SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HATE AND love you.

2009-03-10T02:57:00.000-07:00

2009-03-08T19:28:00.000-07:00

this vid..........is so damn sick.......

i swear

u can really see the dead rabbits flesh><

its damn sick ><

2009-03-05T07:16:00.000-08:00

my version of listen to yr HEART >< SO SUCKS><

actually....there are some mistakes...but who cares....some sort...it looked like a heart... so
dun care><

this heart is crocheted for this poem...

Love,
Is beautiful,
Is pain,
Is wanted and needed,
Like the falling rain.

Love,
It completes you,
It doesn’t die,
It moves,
It’ll make you cry.

Love,
What I breathe for,
What’s worth waiting?
What’s inside,
This game of baiting?

Love,
You can’t escape,
You can’t deny it,
You can’t ignore,
Or try to forget.

Love,
Every waking moment,
Every beat of the heart,
Everything you do,
For love from the start.

Love,
Find it within you.
Find it soon,
Find it in the shadows,
Of the fading moon.

was browsin through deviantart....again><

if only i can draw like this artist=0

PARAMORE!!!!!!!!!!!

just read frm internet...hebe goin release solo....MAYBE><
just hope...S.H.E DUN DISBAND......

if not...who goin to sing ni zhui qing hai hao ma=XXX

2009-03-05T01:34:00.000-08:00

I WANT THIS CD><

Anti-Valentines Day compilation, released by Rhino UK.

:19 tracks feature on the ‘It’s A Misery Business’ collection, which ranges from “loud and noisy rock, emo, punk and metal” that is “guaranteed to turn even the warmest of hearts black!”.

1. Nickelback - Something In Your Mouth
2. Paramore - Misery Business
3. Slipknot - Dead Memories
4. Atreyu - Doomsday
5. Gallows - Orchestra Of Wolves
6. Kill Hannah - Lips Like Morphine
7. Elliot Minor - Jessica
8. Panic At The Disco - I Write Sins Not Tragedies
9. Cobra Starship - Guilty Pleasure
10. Simple Plan - Your Love Is a Lie
11. Madina Lake - Pandora
12. Kids In Glass Houses - Girls
13. Fighting With Wire - Everyone Needs A Nemesis
14. Biffy Clyro - Mountains
15. Billy Talent - Try Honesty
16. A - Better Off With Him
17. Jacks Mannequin - The Mixed Tape
18. Cute Is What We Aim For - Loser
19. Amanda Palmer - Leeds United

see my favouritest hayley william *0.0* and my new idol elliot minor...hehe=X

couple of nice songs...^^

but
tt doesn mean tt im anti valentines day okey...-.-

2009-03-04T22:56:00.001-08:00

LOL.....

im SOOOOOOOOOOO glad their french is my standard.

NEW IDOLS to me =D

=D
British classical and rock band.........they are really...FREAKIN CLASSICAL....orchestral type...and yet... its ROCK><

so damn cool

1 of them is a mix=D jap n angmoh...SO COOL *0.0*

2009-03-03T05:20:00.000-08:00

the 1st monster i made....

for kai ling sis............<33333

made with <3

2009-03-02T23:30:00.000-08:00

my blog is quite ________dead.

my life is also quite________dead.

haix..........

wat a sian holiday......

boring year
boring life....
boring day.........

but i still managed to keep myself occupied=D

the design company is ok

just tt much was expected from me....I REALLY MEANT MUCH.
since my dad was....ya..........so..............they expected me to be like my dad....BUT...yeah...who knows.....

im not.

and 2nd....i hav to wake up at 6+ >>>>><<<<<

and the food there...nt really cheap><

last but not least.......................ITS IN BEACH RD FOR GODSAKE ><

so damn far...................but i cnt just quite half way right............know who my dad is...........yar........>< i have to ren....

office life is not my life...i cnt sit infront of the com the whole day.......

its SO NOT me.

2009-02-25T04:08:00.000-08:00

today

is nt yokeleng and vivian's day><

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh

i really hope yokeleng's wound can heal faster=XXXXXXXXXXX

like the werewolf~!!!!!!!!!!!!

went cycling w yokeleng lemin vivian alwin yewli wenkai....today...like i said- not our day..........rain rain rain><
yokeleng gt injured
walk long distances.....leg so nua >< sucks><

2009-02-21T18:43:00.000-08:00

you know what........

deep down inside me..........

ive also hated you...

i hate you for giving birth to me...leaving me here to suffer.
i hate you for not killing me when i was younger...at least...grandma will be happy... the girl in the family line is dead......
i hate you for giving me your looks-and you said that i am ugly.

ya you are right.i am ugly- there goes my self esteem that i had been trying hell hard to build up.
SHUT THE FUCK UP ASSHOLE.

i hate you so much.............the irony is-you are my mother><

i wish i was never alive.
cos now that i am, i feel so empty.
like nothing is in me.
empty smiles.empty laughes.empty stares.

SHIT MAN.god take me away.i cnt help myself for being such a 2-faced.i cnt.

2009-02-20T23:35:00.002-08:00

this kid freakin cute orh..
"blooddddddded...bloodddddddddddddddddded"

"NOT FUNNie~!"

2009-02-18T01:34:00.000-08:00

my another idol----

Leona Lewis><

The 22-year-old beauty said her visit to Johannesburg on behalf of charity Sport Relief has changed her life, and talking to victims of rape and domestic violence made her realise how lucky she was.
The singer broke down after speaking with a grandmother who told the star of her struggle in raising her grandchildren following the death of their mother from AIDS.

Leona said her visit with AIDS orphans was 'heartbreaking'

despite bein a really famous diva....she actually made time for charity...

and..........

she is so down to earth............

<3333333333333333333333333333333333

2009-02-17T03:12:00.000-08:00

im ....actually supposed to study now....
again

but im not =x

short drama frm SP...damn freakin nice^^

2009-02-16T04:54:00.000-08:00

the new DJMAX...

so damn nice laaaaaaaaaaa

actually...im supposed to study now...
but im not...
cos i...

cant

cos...
i
no mood...

i so so SO hate AUD...i cant be happier that it will be over the day after tomorrow...

i swear its over this time^^

Cmaths...was over ..........YAY........
i never hated maths so much be4(excluding the 2 weeks in JC).......its just...such a disgusting burden to touch on it><

2009-02-16T04:28:00.000-08:00

my now tu ku hair =((((

haix...cut too short le><

>>>>>>>>>><<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

wait for it to grow ba....extensions...waste money...

long hair...waste shampoo waste water waste electricity....

i have to cheer myself up by thinkin postive....

at least go swimmin no need to wear cap(:

P.s...this is not rihanna hair style-.-...it only looks like-.-

2009-02-13T05:57:00.000-08:00

if only this works.........

2009-02-12T08:33:00.000-08:00

YAY............

HAYLEY WILLIAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-02-12T04:47:00.000-08:00

Local CFA firefighter David Tree shares his water with an injured Australian Koala at Mirboo North after wildfires swept through the region.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO><

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG TT

god bless australia!!!!!!!!!!!

to help my papa...im so gonna eat all yr snacks...
its ok to try unhealthy snacks...so u eat a little...and i eat the rest all.
.high cholestrol.high in sugar.high in sodium.high in fats.UNHEALTHY OIL><

!!!!!!!to risk this YOUNG FAT body for the health of my dad

Anyone who can touch your soul... can hurt you or heal you...

2009-02-11T04:38:00.000-08:00

I WAN TO GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

^your guardian angel^

WA><

heart itchy><

cfm damn nice 1 ><

The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus LEH><

$50 Group package tickets available till 28 February
(minimum 3 tickets purchase required)

Non group Early bird tickets:
$65 till 20 February 2009
$75 from 21 February - 9 March 2009
At the door: $85

><

ANYBODY WAN TO GO><

2009-02-08T05:25:00.000-08:00

Let me be the one to break it up
So you won’t have to make excuses
We don’t need to find a set up where
Someone wins and someone loses
We just have to say our love was true
But has now become a lie
So I’m tellin’ you I love you one last time
And goodbye

Let Me Be The One - jimmy bondoc
-thank you eyes.it has nv been a lie.hasnt it >

2009-02-05T05:24:00.000-08:00

IM SO SUAY MAN><

ITS NOT ANYBODY's fault...

its my....and god's

is fate that it was meant to be better off this way...

1st. no music.cos 1 side of my earpiece is numb to me.

ok.
i diam diam.

2nd. my VS n flex assignment is killing me to my core.
at first goin to work...
than...the database is gone...*GONE*
>< i really...tried...

sian man....lucky the girls (vivian n yokeleng)are there to help me...i doubt i would carry on without them.

3rd. god made it happen. my VS is not saved...

WTH...o.0 I HATE THIS DAY-god forbids me to EVERYTHING

2009-02-04T04:48:00.000-08:00

1st of all

FLirts on the loose really piss me off

2nd

if they are to enter my friends lifes in one way or another..

THEY ARE SO FARKIN DEAD- cos i'll kill them

--------THOSE DISGUSTING FACES AND PERSONALITIES....

are the MOST shameless creatures on this planet...

3rd...

apple of me eye^^

thx wenhao so much for introin me this apple to me^^

exams are reachin le.............

ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

i dunno whr to start studyin lo><
haix
still gt assignment haven do....
SIAN MAN

UNBEAUTIFUL GIRL WITH UNBEAUTIFUL LIFE DOING HER UNBEAUTIFUL ASSIGNMENT><

2009-02-01T18:25:00.000-08:00

Don't hang up, can't we talk
So confused it's like I'm lost
What went wrong, what made you go
Don't pretend you don't know
This is me I'm unchangable

When did we fall apart
Or did you lie from the start
When you said, it's only you
I was blind, such a fool
Thinking we were unbreakable

It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful

I've been told what's done is done
To let it go and carry on
Deep inside I know that's true
I'm stuck in time, stuck on you
When We were still untouchable

Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up
Cause I'm only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out, get out
Get out of my head now
Because we're much better altogether
Can't let go...

Unbeautiful - Lesley Roy

Life turns
as tragedy cripples my world
a twisted reality

Life shatters
as shards of glass rip through my sanity
happiness bleeds

Life burns
as fire scorches my hope
ashes of dreams

Life suffocates
as soil swallows my feelings
a casket of emotions

Life laughs
as the flames of hell tickle my past
a cancelled sitcom

Life sucks><

do proj until 2am under my block...
we were SO DESPERATE for a plug><

The stars from up above kept me alive. the chilling night wind kept me awake.

and... the project was kinda...screwed><

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO0000000000000000000000000000000000000000000ooooooo

2009-01-31T07:42:00.000-08:00

late post><

busy la...and lazy ><

yesterday celebrate YOKELENG bday.........19 le..........SO GOOD ORH...
I WAN FASTER 18=X

HAPPY HAPPY BDAY...and hope her dreams and wishes come true^^

and...the last weekday to pia proj le><
and wenhao is nt feeling well><
damn weird to do proj w/o him cos...hes alwys rushin us so tt he can go back early...SO SORRY TO MAKE U WAIT FOR US TO DO PROJECT WENHAO><

today...
went back to do proj too...
projprojprojPROJ><
so sick and tired of tt same darn thing...
the more you look at it...
the more u will feel that its incomplete.inperfect.ugly.useless.othergroupsareSOMUCHbetter.

and yet...we cant bear to discard it away cos...we've put so much effort, so much time for it...

and the teachers are not there for you at the last lap... the time we needed them most(even got the time to go to bikini bay beach WTH)-in the end...we still need to depend on ourselves.not the teachers.us.

if it disappears suddenly...what will u do if there is no backup?

what will u do if its not up to your standard and you feel so much like a failure-a loser?

this yr is so not a gd yr for me.
my grades.
my fortune(i lost more than ive gt for 21dot><)

wats wrong>

2009-01-21T07:09:00.000-08:00

i swear i really nv kiss ass durin the comm skill lesson...
even though it seems like i am really kissing her ass...
but i really like the teacher lots...
if only...
all the teachers are as caring and patient as her...
the world will DEFINETELY be a better place (:

and SCREW the BLOODY PROJ><
guess i inherited it o.0 =#

i did tt quiz on saraphina's blog...

and this is wat it gave me
><

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Being Alone While you may act like you don't care on the outside, on the inside your biggest fear is being alone. You can be quite shy and reserved. You feel like a lot of times people don't really see the real you. You're afraid that no one will really truly love you, and that you will be alone for the rest of your life. On the inside you are great person, so just remember that and don't let your shy nature get the best of you! If you don't want to be a lone then you need to make an effort to be with someone. Show the people that you care about that you really love them, and chances are someone will always be there, even if you think they won't.
Looked down on
Losing Someone
Where Your life is Going
Death
Disappointment
Commitment
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

but seriously... i dun really care;p

commit to the lord whatever you do and your plans will suceed
-proverbs 16:3
dedicated to sara lia syl wirda khuz kailing(in no particular order):)

2009-01-16T23:27:00.000-08:00

Went to Indonesia for CIP and adventure camp along with radin mas primary p6 students.

After seeing their living standards and the conditions of their schools, I feel very fortunate to be living in Singapore, blessed with a complete family and nice school and never had any hardships.

kinda spoilt me.

made some new friends...pri 6...and their teachers also

i was stuck with smart smart kids...and sometimes FREAKING naughty kids(who called themselves orang utan junior durin the campfire)...

u can see the diff lor...

the smart kids go trekkin will tell u what cell wat type of plants and all those...

while on the other hand

the nt so smart ones...will call u
"teacher teacher GOT ORANGE COLOUR TREE LEH TEACHER!!!~"
if not
"TEACHER~ GOT MANY MANY ANTS LEH"
if not...
"what time ah~ hungry leh~ tiring leh~ climb climb climb"

and than i was stuck w sick kids...kids with fever...injured here injured there...

one of them was a korean....freakin cute and happy kid...he always hav this cute =D
hehe
but he super lazy...and he alwys kena bullied...
cos hes english nt gd...
and...even though hes fever is 38.1....HE ATE 2 PACKETS OF RICE....2 PACKETS LEH!!!!!!!

the other sick kid no appeitite and he has so much appeitite><

and he dunno DBSK LEH><....he freakin no korean entertainment de man><
only know

DUEL MONSTER > <

and when he call home...he speak to his mum in korean... SO COOL...*grin and envy*...
hes mum knows how to cook kimchi leh>< eyer ;p

i wan to be korean ALSO=X...i learn fat fat in korean le...alwys tease him > <

and i made friends w some cute cute CUTE girls...

they are REALLLLLLLY nice ^^

x3333 those cuties hehe...

i went to play flyin fox...in slippers> <
damn fun man...even those old old teachers also so hip and play...

and their camp fire...hav light stick de la........so cool...

1 group i think nothin to sing alr...really go and sing their sch song...and they made the teachers do chicken dance...so sayang my dad nv dance w them=X

and the teachers...gt SPA...gt KTV... good life... stay in air con room...while the kids stay in tents.... have heater somemore...and tV.... really gd life man....luckily i was 1 of the "teachers" YAY ME~

and a vid of the brains of their sch playin:

(p.s...they are REALLY smart kids)

2009-01-14T06:56:00.000-08:00

dark by ~nevainnocent on deviant ART

hehe~

posted this just now....

and this

oriental ice queen by ~nevainnocent on deviant ART

tmr goin indo le...actually...

i damn scared >< cos there...very famous for terrorist >< haix...
but...

i

alr

v v v long nv go hiking le...
leg itchy><

2009-01-09T08:11:00.000-08:00

came across some really nice vids

like this kid...he can dance like....WTH =X

this kid...really musically talented^^

and this kid...is really wacky>< but shes cool^^

2009-01-08T06:56:00.000-08:00

was browsing through deviantart...

and i came across some really nice pics (:

262. Pen and Paper by ~Wieleba on deviant ART

tortured soul by `AutumnsGoddess on deviant ART

Silent Lament by ~neu-bee on deviant ART

Music Box :wallpaper:1 by ~divino07 on deviant ART

i posted some of my photoshoped pics also

gt ppl faved it><

so freakin happy ><

2009-01-08T00:26:00.000-08:00

proj again-.-

today come back to sch...than fiona pass me this game::

http://luca-c-house.com/sweet-valentine-eng.html

damn cute ^^

but like IQ game...take some time ;p

2008-12-29T01:39:00.000-08:00

reviving the DEAD blog...

pictures of the msia trip

our house

the flood

the Twilight*

nothing much...

damn nice...with the flood^^
which makes it diff from the other times we've been there...

pics frm hk

the cute chair

my parents^^

the christmas spirit there

my bro

the "snow"

the princesses

my favouritest princess^^

<3

the antique water cooler^^

my family ^^<33333

2008-12-02T06:51:00.000-08:00

i FREAKIN like this song>< DJ MAX

2008-11-20T03:44:00.000-08:00

im sooooo gonna read the twilight series><

sry about the"so nice leh" tt i keep sayin=xx

eyer...tmr twilight comin out in america...

wished i could just run there...like the vampires in the story...

><

i should stop wishing...
dreams dont come true.
and they never will.
digest it.

2008-11-20T03:20:00.000-08:00

thank you so much banana family for saturday><

THANK YOU^^

sry this post is late.

again.

angelia...still as horny n mature n childish n studious as ever... and as cute^^ aka hippo>< ^^not bad...yr still scared of veg^^ you nv change at all...

sara...haha....yr tan now... TANNED CHEENA>< kidding;p...still being a porky;p
you'll be the cutest pork in the world tt no one can bear to eat^^

khuz.....your still as crazy as ever...still taggin at my blog to REMIND ME TO POST THIS>< sry again for the late entry>< i really envy u soooooooooooo much...u hav a really photogenic face...i wish i was borned like that;p

wirda..i guess....your tired on saturday... but thanks for celebratin my bday even though u guys hav LOTS of proj...(except lia)...and r still nt havin holidays(except for lia)....thank you sooo much

love you guys LOTS LOTS LOTS LOTS LOTS LOTS LOTS LOTS(p.s n thx for the note...and the drink^^)
xoxo
amanda

2008-11-14T06:53:00.000-08:00

thank you soooooooooo much for everything

^^

to yokeleng n vivian n fiona and joanna and lemin and peiqin and jie ting n all the boys in the class

THANK YOU SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH^^

and thank you for wishin me happy bday^^ including billy of IJC de pae...thx^^

thank you ping pong aka sylvia darling for yr 2 pg essay for me.........luckily theres drawings>< and cheem cheem words tt i can learn frm and nice nice nice things in the letter and the times we shared and the memories...even though my memory is just so bad><

-the times we wore FREAKING FREAKING FREAKING NERDY UNIFORMS with the FREAK NERDIEST style and the FREAKING NERD way we were *~EKKKK~*

-the times we yacked n yacked n YACKED in chinese class and copied saraphina and angelia's hmwork and classwork EVERYTIME

-the times we talked SOOOOOOOOOOO much mrs george wouldnt allow us to sit tgt...eventually we secretly changed place>< *GRIN*

-the times...we looked for jason tan for chemistry to make crystals...white crystal, blue crystal...

-the times we changed places in maths n phy lesson so many times...hairy mama didnt even notice it><

-the times we played floorball and we were ALWAYS in the same team and STINK like hell...and wacked the ball so hard.... the guys didn wan to play w us cos they gt injured by us=xx... violent young ladies we were=xx

-the times i lied to my parents so that i could go to your house to play and watch 'zack and cody' and eat ice stick and bully edward and hear him wail~ and play yr comp

yo pretty pretty pretty girl... THANKS^^ even though we cnt hang out on the actual day...its ok^^...U ROCK TO THE CORE!!! love ya xoxo^^

NOT forgeting my other little darlings:
-angelia aka mature mature mature immature daddy of the family(dun be fooled w her im-nt-happy face when she dun smile),
-saraphina aka the AUSTRALIA air pork and mummy of the family(yo yellow banana~ still yellowin^^),
- wirda aka the WILDDDDDDDDDDDDDESTTTTTTTTTTTT and craziesttttttttttt person ive ever met and my older cousin and mrs jonas(married to kevin),
-and last but not least darling khuz aka the kawaiinei and my aunty and mrs jonas(married to joe)

if i were to type the memories out...its gotta take up the WHOLE page with just 1 post><

but ill eventually pour out the memories...they will never fade away^^...and its not supposed to be emo-.- sorry if it sounds emo=xx

the banana family aka animal family ROCKS TO THE CORE

and also thank you kiki sis^^
friends since pri 3^^
never changed...(: still as vain^^ but more more more pretty pretty pretty le^^
thanks for being there when i need someone to talk to...
to acc me for tution even though i ps u and quit=X sry=(
to make me stronger as compared to last time(:
love ya ^^

love love love love you guys

xoxo^^

and thanks^^

2008-11-06T03:38:00.000-08:00

after a long long long break

im bloggin again
=x

i really wan to watch this movie

=xx

freakin nice ^^

freakin scary

FREAKIN COOL^^

btw about tt paramore thingy...if u don like it...back off and piss off><

2008-10-29T06:54:00.000-07:00

;p

sry v long nv update....

like as if... this blog is DEAD =X

watched HSM3 today ^^ and suddenly i realised the 1 of the actress look really FREAKIN familar...

than

i realised..she acted in another disney movie b4 ^^ with hayden (claire frm heros)

sian man tmr maths..............uber sianZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz------___________

so many hmwk haven do-..-

HAIZ -.-

2008-10-28T05:35:00.001-07:00

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2008-10-17T03:45:00.000-07:00

hayley william plays guitar !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>< ^^

2008-10-14T06:47:00.000-07:00

sry la.............

i keep paramorein~ n dbskin~

><

i cnt help it...its me....

i wouldnt be complete without them...

they...

are a part of me...^^

today freakin ^^

french^^

bonjour^^ hehe

pics in the chalet

2008-10-09T07:44:00.000-07:00

2008-10-04T06:26:00.000-07:00

AHHHHHHHH KOREAN PPL LISTEN PARAMORE LEH ><

*0.0*

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~~~~~~~

2008-10-04T02:24:00.001-07:00

If you run away now,
Will you come back around?
And if you ran away,
I'd still wave goodbye
watching you shine bright.

Now I think we're taking this too far
don’t you know that it's not this hard?
Well it's not this hard
but if you take what's yours and I take mine
Must we go there?
Please not this time. No, not this time

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